SNOWWWWWW!!

So, yesterday I wrote a bummed out post about not being in the Christmas spirit because there isn't snow... Well, I woke up this morning to about 3 inches of snow!!!!!! So all day I could sing, "It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!" BECAUSE IT DOES!!!!!! YAY!

I had to update :)

P.S. Rachel, give me back my power!
haha!

Christmas, money, personal power, etc...

Christmas is soon approaching. Although we don't have one drop of snow on the ground, I am trying my best to get in the spirit. I've done all my Christmas shopping, I've wrapped, I've shipped, I've listened to the Christmas music... I really do want to be excited for Christmas. But there Isn't any snow... There isn't anymore money, there isn't family around... So, it is hard. So, anyway... I have just decided that I am going to be happy anyway. I am going to enjoy the fact that I got my friends and family the perfect gifts, even if they did cost too much money. I am going to be happy that I don't have to drive in the snow. I am going to be happy that I get 3 weeks off work. I am going to be happy that I am alive and healthy. I am going to be happy that gas prices are SO dang cheap these days. I am going to be happy that I have pretty much the coolest Iphone ever. Anyway, I could go on... but I won't bore you :)

I was really logging on to write about personal power, and how I am really starting to understand what that means. I understand now that you can give away power just like you can give away sugar cookies. I never thought it was possible to hand over power... but it is. So now the hard part is figuring out who in the hell has my power and how I can get it back! So, this is my new journey. I need to work on this power thing, so I don't go through life weak and powerless like I have been. Who knew?

Just happy it's Friday

Well, I don't really have anything important to blog about today... which has been pretty normal lately. I am happy it's Friday, it has been a long week! The kids preformed in the Christmas program this week, they were so cute! (I tried posting pictures, but it isn't workin' tonight). But they were very cute.

My mom and I decorated for Christmas on Saturday. It was pretty fun! Our tree is only 4 feet tall, but it's on top of a radio thing, so it looks tall :) I put the lights on the outside of the house too, which was coolio.

I went to therapy today, which was okay. We just had a pretty chill convo, which was actually nice. Sometimes it's nice to be able to just chill and talk about random stuff. I was pretty proud of myself for talking... even if it was kinda lame stuff I talked about.

Anyway... that's basically all I can think to say at the moment... I promise I'll get more interesting soon :)

I've lost all hope...

Okay, so I have totally lost all hope in the medical profession. Why is it absolutely necessary for doctors to think that because you are on anti-depressants you are PSYCHO, and therefore not medically sick, but emotionally sick? I refuse to go to the doctor, like, EVER again. Let me break this down for ya'll... So, I went to the gyno, which is like the WORST experience EVER... I mean, who wants cold, metal, speculum rapers in their vag? NOT ME! So, anyway... I sucked up all my mental health, which is like -17%, and went. I mean, I have like super-de-duper bad endometriosis and have felt like my insides have been ripped out by a dull ice cream scoop... no biggie. So I go in to the doc with my super sweaty hands and muster the courage to look him in the face and tell him all about my pain and that birth control DOESN'T work and that I want other options. So, said speculum man tells me that the only option is birth control... And I was like, hey I had a surgery once that helped like a ton! And it is like, totally safe and I went back to work the next day... And he got all wacky and was like, OH hell no, you have to try birth control again... and I was like, hey shiz head... NO! And so he was like, Do you have a history of abuse....... and I was like WTF? But finally told him that yes... I do have a history... So he tells me that my "pelvic pain" is a symptom of my past and therefore I need therapy. So, I was like... um... I have endometriosis... So do something... and he said, no birth control... no help. Nice to meet you. And there was NO pelvic exam....... Which, trust me...... I wasn't SO sad about... BUT, I was like... Um, WTF do I pay you for???
It isn't just the gyno... trust me... All doctors are this way. So, basically, I am going to stop all medications, and stop seeing doctors, and stop being crazy, and stop being unhealthy.

So, WHATEV... I am NEVER, EVER, EVER, going to the doc again....... Apparently I am just not stable enough... and all my physical pain is a symptom of my crazies...

On a good note... Unicycling is now a sport. I don't know how to unicycle, but if I did, I would DEF go the olympics... or whatever competition they show off their skills in.

Gas prices, vet bills, Matthew Gray Gubler.......

Okay, so this blog thing has been way harder than I expected. I have tons of stuff I want to write about... and yet I am to L too the AZY to do so! Anywhozies. Let me break this down for ya'll...

1. Gas prices: Like WTF? It was like 4.00 Dizollars/gallon! But today I went to the doc (which is another subject) and as I drove by Maverick gas was totally like $2.25/gallon! When did this happen? Hoo rah! So, I'm forshiz happy about it! (P.S. It is like 2.15 now!)

2. Vet bills: Okay, I'll try to make this long story short! So, you know how 4 months ago my kitty Roxie died from a weird-o kidney disease? I was like totally, crazy sad and all. So, my kitty Gracie was like my love after that. Well, 2 weeks ago Gracie started getting sicky... So we took her to the vet and they did blood tests and all. So anyhow, they found out her kidneys were failing, and she died the next day. AHHHH. I wanted to bawl like a baby! (but of course crying is totally not my thing). So, I was left alone with my dog Princess (who is pretty much the raddest dog ever!) My mom was S to the AD like crazy, so she and I decided to get 2 more kittens from my mom's friend. So, we did... and they are super-de-duper cute! But, the little orange one (Charley) was sick-o... and I was like oh-hell-no! BUT, I couldn't bear to let her go back to the cold. So, I took him to the vet. He had like a bizillion worms (as well as Chester). So, they neutered them and all that jazz, and Charley was STILL a sick little kitty. So, he had to stay at the vet for a few days, and when he came home he was still sick. Whatev! So, anyway, after lots of nasty medicine, he is finally better... So, now I owe the vet like 9 trillion-billion-gazillion dollars! But all my babies are healthy now... so that's good.

3. Matthew Gray Gubler: Okay, so I am so super obsessed with this guy! I honestly ♥ him with all the love-ness I have! I should not be infatuated with a TV character! Honestly, I like his character Spencer Reed on Criminal Minds better than I like the actual star. I am pretty much a wack!



4. I signed up for ESPANOL! Like... WTF? I'm not so good at the foreign language thing... but it's fun anway. I only missed 1 on my first test (which threw my OCD craziness into the light...Causing me SUPER-STRESS) but whatev. So, ?Como Esta Usted? I'll keep you updated on my foreign language awesome-ness!

5. A few days ago I wake up and I am like almost totally blind in my right eye... AHHH... So, I go on with my day and it eventually goes away. Then, later in the day my right eye goes all F to the UZZY and my LEFT eye gets the same FUZZ! I was like totally blind!! I freaked OUT! So my mom took me to the eye doctor STAT! They dilated my eyes to make sure my retinas were still attached... THEY WERE! WHEW.... Apparently it was an Ocular Migraine. A migraine without pain that made me temporarily blind. Work was pretty much impossible, but I still tried!

6. Therapy................................................................. SUCKS............................................................ and I'm pretty much done with it. I am NO good at the whole "open up and tell me how you feel" thing. Honestly, I am like, "um... I don't know what the H.E.L.L. is wrong with me." So, I basically just want to Q...U...I...T! But how do you do that without your 'T' thinkin' you are like sui...ci...dal...???? Whatev... Healing is pretty much LAME-A-ZOID!!!

7. Weight Watchers fudge bars have saved my sanity! (for the most part)



TO BE CONTINUED...
Adios!

More pictures

Okay, so writing right now is super lame for me because nothing new is really happening in my life... So, I am going to post pictures instead (again!) I'll try to write something super fantastically rad soon... For now, enjoy the pics :)


Me and Princess posing
Yep, that is a sweater with a skull and crossbones! ♥
Gracie loves her new tube toy!
My mom got these flowers after her surgery... I just thought they were awesome!
Yep, a hoodie for my pup. She really does get cold outside, and shivers... I feel bad for her, therefore she gets spoiled with sweaters! ☻

The newest joy of my life!

On Saturday I adopted a new member to my household. Her name is Princess and she is the cutest Chihuahua mix you'll ever see! She is 3 years old and was living in the humane society. I ♥ her already! She is the best dog, hands down! She is so calm, never barks, LOVES to go for walks! AND, she sleeps through the night on the foot of my bed. She is great! Isn't she great??



She so calm!!
She loves me!
She loves the park!
She's a great jogging partner!

Isn't her sweater cute??!!