In memory

My dad was born in 1940. In 1975 he married my mom. He worked hard and always supported us. He loved me (and my brothers and sister) :) He was an awesome dad! I loved my dad more than anything! Even though he was ill most of my life, he still did what he could. He LOVED to fish and camp. He was always at the lake, ALWAYS. He loved to take us fishing, and we loved to go! When I was little he worked for a restaurant… He would call us when the first batch of bread came out of the oven so we could run over to eat warm bread with him. He loved going on long drives. Sunday’s were spent driving… It didn’t matter where we went, we just drove. My mom and sister would sing, sing, sing… I loved those days! My dad was strong too. He may have been sick, but he was one buff dude! Not even joking!

One time my dad took me to the mall (just to walk, and window shop)… It was the best day ever! We didn’t buy anything… We just walked around, mostly in silence… but that was how I liked it… Just being with him. Going to the mall was pretty rare because dad would much rather spend his time fishing! I could write pages about the times I got to spend with my dad… and the fun things we did as a family!

Dad died of a heart attack on leap year 2000 (February 29, 2000). It was the worst day of my life. I love my papa and miss him dearly. I can’t believe 10 years have passed!

I wrote this poem for my dad. It was printed on the back of his funeral program. (this is from memory, so I’m pretty sure it isn’t exact, but it’s pretty close)

a warm and tender man came into this world

he lived his life serving his country and his family

he had warm smile and a laugh like Santa Claus

He loved his children and grandchildren

Some called him boss

some called him friend

some called him Ron

but I called him dad

I love you daddy ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Me and my papa ♥Mom, Dad and Me on my wedding day

Dad and Kim when she was in labor with Emily (who is now 13!!!!)

My papa

Family photo (Kim’s wedding 1994; yes, I was super chubbo!) This is probably the last photo with Travis in it. :(

Dad loved being shirtless. haha! He also loved Christmas!

 

In Memory of Ronald George Bagshaw

July 5, 1940 – February 29, 2000

 

28 by 28

Okay ya’ll. I have been hearing on the radio all this jazz about 30 by 30 or 25 by 25 (etc… etc…). I wasn’t sure what this was, but the other day I figured it out. It is about weight loss (for my friends with weight triggers, I am going to be talking about weight loss). So, in 6 months I will be 28. This isn’t a significant age really… A little closer to 30 I guess, but no biggie. But, I have decided that I want to start eating better and being more active. I don’t want to “diet”. Dieting is stupid! Seriously, you diet for awhile, then fall back to the old lifestyles… So, I just want to be more healthy. I do want to lose weight… but, it is more about being healthy. So, I am going to jump on this bandwagon. I am going to try to lose 28 pounds by my 28th birthday. I have 6 months, so I don’t think it will be too bad… but I do need to work for it. So, starting today I’m going to drink more water, eat more fruits and veggies, and be active (I don’t want to call it exercise!)

So, yeah… This is my new thing. I’ll keep you updated :)

New background!

Okay, I’ve spent the day on Photoshop trying to figure out how to make my own background. Nothing online ever suits my fancy… So, I figured it out! This is a VERY simple background, and I need to make some adjustments… but overall, I’m pretty happy with it. So, now that I’ve spent the whole day doing this I can move on with bigger and better things! :)

So, tell me what ya’ll thinksies.

Back to work tomorrow. So fun??

No.

Colors and such

I think I figured it all out…

A book review… and a movie review!

I finished reading “Sickened” by Julie Gregory. What a sad book! Munchausen by Proxy is a horrible sickness. Parents making their kids sick, who could do that? I thought it provided a great picture of what the daughter had to live through. I would highly recommend it! 9/10

Yesterday I went to see Shutter Island with friends. I hadn’t heard much about it, but I did know it had good reviews. Well, honestly I loved it! I thought it had great twists and turns! 10/10

So, there you have it! Not much is going on with me. Work is dramatic and such, but that’s a post for another time. And, I haven’t taken pictures in forever, so I need to do that.

The end

A new book review

Happy Sunday peeps. Okay, so I just finished reading “Switching Time” by Richard Baer. This book, written by a psychiatrist, is about a woman with Dissociative Identity Disorder (formally, and more commonly known as Multiple Personality Disorder). For many reasons I have a HUGE interest in Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID). I’ve had this book on my shelf for quite some time, and decided to finally read it. It is one of MANY I have read on the subject.

First, if you don’t like reading books that involve child abuse/neglect, DON’T read this book. It goes pretty deep into the woman’s childhood, which includes SEVERE sexual, physical, psychological, and emotional abuse. It follows the woman’s life through therapy and recovery, and a whole lot of pain. What an inspirational book! It is sad… It is painful to read at times… but I found it very interesting, and thought the psychiatrist did a great job at telling the story of his patient.

Many people do not believe DID exists… That it is a disorder made up by a mentally ill person. This might be true for some, but don’t be too quick to assume it isn’t “real”. You may actually know someone surviving this disorder! Mental illness is rough… but it is very interesting to read about. Or, maybe it’s just me… and that is why I’m going to be a therapist :) Who knows!

If you are interested at all in mental illness, or want to read something pretty cool… read this book! I give it a 9/10!!

 

I am currently reading a book called “Sickened” by Julie Gregory. It is a story about Munchausen By Proxy (another VERY interesting mental illness!) Stay tuned for my review! :)

Karma and The Valentine’s Day blues…

Okay guys… This week totally sucked. I pissed off the gods or Mother Nature, or The Godfather or something! On Monday a jerk of an old man backed into me at Broulims. He thinks he is God, therefore shouldn’t have to pay for the dent in my car… so he is yelling and fighting and throwing a tantrum like a 3 year old boy. On Tuesday I didn’t feel great… but went to work anyway. Well, my student ended up having a meltdown and drama, drama, drama, then went home. Wednesday I felt even more crappy, so I stayed home and puked all day. Thursday work drama, drama, drama, drama… work meeting, crying at work, etc… etc… etc… Then, Happy Hour at Garcia’s with Jackie and Cindy, which resulted in an old, drunk, leathery, hag called us pretty but fat. This goes on and on guys, so I won’t bore you with it. Just know, my luck… well, SUCKS!

So, wah, right? Yes.

I’m not loving V-day this year… Or should I say, Singles Awareness Day. It is totes rough on me… which is lame! I guess it is just a weird year. On the 18th I would be married 10 years. Whoa peeps, that is C.R.A.Z.Y! I am totally glad I’m not married to him anymore, but… I don’t know, it’s hard too.

My papa has been gone for 10 years this month too. I can’t believe it. 10 years just flies by! Seriously. 10 years ago I graduated high school, got married, lost my dad, started college. It seems like yesterday.

Anyway, I did go see Valentine’s Day with Jackie, Cindy, and Karly. It was a pretty cute movie, and I had a good time hanging out with friends!

So, Happy Valentine’s Day… or Singles Awareness Day… or Sunday. :)

WTF

Ok,ay, So I STILL have a headache. The doctor doesn’t seem to know what the problem is… He gave me more pills, and they seriously don’t help. I can’t tell you how bad this freaking hurts… I don’t know what is causing it, but I want it GONE!

Besides that… all is crazy… but good.